Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Hanging on tightly

Apologies for the long silence.  This week was finals week at school.  I had a take-home final and a rather large paper due on Monday.  We'll play a little catch-up now.

First, the day after Sammy passed, I found out that a friend of mine from NYC committed suicide.  He was 27.  There were a lot of reasons for his sadness.  He gave in to the depression, to the voice in his head that said it would be easier, better this way.  He was an amazing human being and artist. He was 19 when I met him, shy, and very, very sweet. He had a special quality, and I adored him from the beginning.  It is so sad.

Second, I spent an entire day Saturday (the 9th) working on my project only to have the software malfunction.  I lost about 1/4 of my work.  I was very upset, as you might imagine.  By Monday morning (the 11th), I felt very defeated.

But, third, Monday night I went to Katy Perry's concert in Auburn Hills.  Now, I'm not a big concert girl.  They are expensive, loud, and crowded.  BUT! I needed this.  I had a great time and forgot the world and myself for a few hours. 

Fourth, on Wednesday one of my classmates left the room right before my presentation, and when I finished, I asked about her.  She had not been feeling well, and we thought she had stepped out for air.  As the class left, one of my friends rushed back in to say that my classmate had collapsed in the hall.  We called 911, and they took her to the hospital.  I stayed with her for a long time.  She was released the next day.  They think it was stress-related. 

Fifth, I spent the entire weekend finishing my paper and my final exam.  I turned it all in on Monday.

I do feel relieved, but my sleep is very out of whack now.  For ten days I slept five hours (3 AM to 8 AM), and now I'm all messed up.  I took two sleeping pills at 2.5 hours ago.  I shouldn't be awake now.  *sigh*  Nothing for it.  

Sixth, Mike flew to London on Saturday, and he's busy working in Cambridge.  I'm home alone and too exhausted to find trouble to get into.  That makes me sad.  I should be rustlin' up trouble.

That is the catch-up on life.  I have a two week break (13 days now), and I hope to blog quite a bit.  Hope all of you have had a much calmer couple of weeks than I have.  The future will be brighter.  It just has to be.

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Saying goodbye

The night before last Sammy didn't eat.  Yesterday morning she paced the hall, screaming for food.  I tried five different foods before she could eat.  I knew it was time to let her go.  

Yesterday we set up the appointment.  

For me, it's devastating to say goodbye.  I have cried for two days.  She was cranky.  She bit people.  She hated the other cats.  She was old.  She was sick.  But I loved her.

This morning we let Sammy go.  She was so calm and peaceful.  She was a good girl.  

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Update on Sammy and life

Sammy is doing pretty well.  I found some expensive good cat food broth that she can eat.  We keep her separated from the other cats to minimize her stress. She doesn't seem to be in any pain right now and likes attention.  

Mike had to buy a new wood chipper because the old one died.  He used it quite a bit this weekend, and it's fantastic!  He got the chainsaw and the wood chipper after our side jungle, and it looks better.  Of course, there is a lot of jungle left, but every little bit helps.

While I was busy writing my thesis proposal this weekend, Mike also finally took out the old, ugly, poorly installed hall lights.  He patched the holes and installed electrical boxes.  Hopefully he can paint and get the new lights up this week.  The doors to all the bedrooms are finally done so it's time to focus on the trim.  I'm hoping the hall is done before our next international Thanksgiving party.  A year of living with the hideous hall is too long.

Friday, July 25, 2014

Sunrise from Port Huron

I just realized that I forgot to post my pictures from July 5th.  That Saturday morning we drove up to Port Huron with a fellow photog friend and took sunrise pictures of Lake Huron.

We discovered a potentially interesting spot for sunset shots of Detroit.  I have to wait for a nice weekend to go out and shoot.

Monday, July 21, 2014

Little Sammy

We found out today that Sammy, our old lady, has advanced oral cancer.  The vet hasn't given her much time.  I knew when we adopted her that she wouldn't be with us for a long time.  She was 16, and her kidneys were already in the beginning stages of kidney failure.  Still, I hoped.  It took her a very long time to warm up to us.  In March she started sleeping on our bed, and in the past few weeks she's started sleeping with us at night.

Sammy and Mittens never got along.  His playing felt like attacking to her, and in the past two weeks he's been vicious to her, trying to bite her and chasing her out of the bedroom.  I can only guess that he senses her declining health and is posturing for the top-cat position, but maybe I'm giving him too much credit.  Maybe he's just being hateful. They will be permanently separated now.

It's very sad to lose another cat.  Spooky has only been gone for two years.  But I know that this is the price we humans pay for sharing our lives with our four-legged friends.